bergerak boleh tak??MOVE IT

dear life,

i spent time wit my ex last week. yea kes gila talak gamaknya. dah le 1st time we fought when we c each other. since its a LDR thingy supposedly we put aside benda2 yg remeh temeh untuk elakkan dari gaduh. bukan perang besar tapi lebih kepada miscommunication. he wont listen or trima wteva i have to say. i mmg taknak jumpa dia lg but hati ini tak mahu lagi berhenti berharap. DEGIL nyaaa..hailaaaaa. sesungguhnya hati ini telah dibutakan oleh cinta. or mayb bukan cinta infatuation bleh jadik gak or the big N pun kut . i merajuk masa last nite whn we r 2gether so i naik bas sendiri n balik KL. juz wana c his effort to send me back n buat dia rasa bersalah. well ade skit but dats nothin. stat to miss him as soon as sampai KL.anyways, i had enuff of givin him a chance!had enuff of bein da gd girl!in a way rasa sudah tak larat. which is very good. tak bleh nak think rasional asyik ikut perasaan jaaa. i juz cant b mad at him. i need dat ANGER n perasaan amarah tu untuk betul2 move on!!goshhh i wanted to call him rite now...or send sms neh. tengah tahan gila neh!

I baca preview one book "why men marry biatches: a woman s guide to winning her man s heart" by sherry argov . I GOTTA B A BIATCH! i mean seriously..lagi kita berharap pada dia..lagi dia pijak kepala kita!perempuan "baik" mmg loser lah!lagi kita berlembut n sabar dgn laki..lagi dia amik kesempatan n take us fer granted. ade ke nak i turun lagi jumpa dia this week and next week. MOWTIF??then when i refused dia tuduh i bukan2.i cannot say wuts in my mind. tak bleh berbincang lansung dgn dia. mmg buat cara baik n cakap ngn dia pun lembut. but he brush me off and juz dun wanna talk bout anything. relationship is all bout communicating!mcm mana nak kenal diri masing2 dgn mendalam and wht/how we feel suma kalau taknak communicate??mmg tak sekolah agama betul lah jantan neh..menciii!!

im the matured one, the smart and the sabar one here. mmg maintain frm the start. i dun need ur apology sms k?dah terasa diri tu salah baru nak panggil sayang pelbagai..wut r u trying to prove??ee a piece of shit betul lah..im not jenis bleh sabar. tapi sejak dlm r.ship yg ni, kesabaran langit ketujuh betul...eeee tah pe2 tah

u wanna play nasty J...then ill b nasty...im not kain pengelap kaki k?senang2 ja balik ngn kita when u want me then when things get serious u blah..sesuka hati je tau. dear god let perasaan marah n geram ni semakin hari semakin besar..seriously fark up betul lah

anyways...i spent RM100 a day for entertainment juz to make myself happy. its not i cant afford it but i gotta save $ when i start blaja balik soon ..will lepak kolej sabtu nih..juz nak tgk environment kat sana camne..i quit gym coz nak blaja balik. i luv goin to the gym. but i can exercise on my own and start main squash balik...its juz dat...nak pick myself balik. start frm scratch....proves to be susah bangattt...i gotta b one step kedepan..gerak satu langkah je yzziii...ohh cmonnnnnn

sumhw crita the Beauty Shop produced and starring Queen Latifah bagi i semangat skitt...gosh it was the longest w.endddd...i wanna fall in luv again..i wont giv up on myself..banyak benda nak kena accomplish this year the kolej thingy, nak amik semula lesen keta, start exercise balik n travelling...i gotta pick myself up before my birthdayyyy la weiii..hailaaaaa..takmo je tak happy on my birthdayyyy..

all this dgn J the sadis part is r.ship with my mum sgt cold skanggg..hailaaaa.

I GOTTA LUV MYSELF BALIK...TOO DEPENDENT ON J..IM LOSING ME

I LUV U YZZI...bleh takkk ckp syg diri sendirii...

ps/ daria nnt2 la i buat tags tu k?
pps/ thanks sis...sashi kapoor pun sashi kapoor lahh n N?yes i wud luv to see u..juz giv me sum time k?

update: 11pm- he smsed me saying he misses me...alamakkkk tolonglahhh..i cakap "trima kasih" lahh..menciiiii betl ko ni J...suka buat org lemah!