beginning of da end

Dear Life,

Butterfly

When you love someone so deeply
They become your life
It's easy to succumb to overwhelming fears
inside
Blindly I imagined I could
Keep you under glass
Now I understand to hold you
I must open up my hands
And watch you rise

Spread your wings and prepare to fly
For you to become a butterfly
Fly abandoned into the sun
If you should return to me
We truly were meant to be
So spread your wings and fly
Butterfly

I have learned that beauty
Has to flourish in the light
Wild horses run unbridled
Or their spirit dies
You have given me the courage
To be all that I can
And I truly feel your heart will
Lead you back to me when you're
Ready to land

Spread your wings and prepare to fly
For you to become a butterfly
Fly abandoned into the sun
If you should return to me
We truly were meant to be
So spread your wings and fly
Butterfly

I can't pretend these tears
Aren't over flowing steadily
I can't prevent this hurt from
Almost overtaking me
But I will stand and say goodbye
For you'll never be mine
Until you know the way
it feels to fly

Spread your wings and prepare to fly
For you to become a butterfly
Fly abandoned into the sun
If you should return to me
We truly were meant to be
So spread your wings and fly
Butterfly

Spread your wings and prepare to fly
For you to become a butterfly
Fly abandoned into the sun
If you should return to me
We truly were meant to be
So spread your wings and fly
Butterfly
So flutter through the sky
BUTTERFLY

~Mariah Carey~

update: im planning to do sumtin BIG ths coming July...well merancang saja n if all goes well my life akan b totally lain. its kool to b single actually i mean u dun have to answer to anybody. ive got kool parents thy dun care i nak buat ape with my life keje kat mana pun..lagi jauh lagi my mum sukaaaa..bleyyyy tak??mayb dia nak aku berdikari bukan nya aku tak biasa berdikari masa kat Uni. dulu keje part time duk umah sewa lahh..tak balik berbulan..but dats biasa bagi seorang undergrad.
sumtimes when u plan sumthin gila2 pun last2 tak menjadi ie: dlm r.ship promise sehidup semati plan sampai wut kind of wedding we want/nama bakal children etc. i mean dats sweet..hope is good..tapi last2 takde maknanya. banyak benda yg i plan, executed tapi last2 tak menjadi sgt la..tak long term from kerjaya to edu. to even luv life. tapi ths time around the change of a career is a must! i have 2 options:

1) pindah keje outstation tempat yg a bit terceruk..kawan i kenal pun sorang. yea cara hidup lebih simple no worries keje pun tak stress..tapi takde kehidupan bukan ke?nak buat ape je?takkan lepak umah lepas keje tgk tv. takkan nak lepak beach hari2?nnt lelama i akan bela kucing buat teman pastu jadik andalusia bleh??setakat nak cari jodoh kat tmpt keje baru..alamakk ape klassss anak tak berkembang (haha lawak)

2) sambung blaja ke bidang yg i minat...but too afraid to venture in. peluang kerjaya cerah, bleh travel around the world if i want to! (and of coz if im really good at it), work environment pun cam bes, tenang. n the best part is u make ppl feel happy bout thmselves..and its a good ice breaker juga..ppl mesti seronok nak tau pesal kerjaya i..haha..my skill ni bleh dipraktikkan kemana2 pun..i bleh bukak bizness sendiri juga..its sumthin new in malaysia but its a booming bizness overseas...

i dun think i wanna leave KL..i was born bred and mayb die here juga...KL is really a special place a land of abundant opportunities..if i wanna leave KL i might as well pindah jauh sesangat, luar negara bukan ke?mayb J was rite..ill thank him sumday ..yea mayb hmmm..and mama?yeaa yeaa i akan kuar dari umah soonn..ull c